I never saw myself fitting into these two definitions. Creative. Artist.
For 80ish% of my life I never saw myself fitting either of those definitions. ⠀
Organized. Yes. Now there’s a skill/title I totally got behind. It was a cinch for me. And it was also one that was valued and validated by teachers and managers.
I was far too “messy” (I always thought of precision and perfection was what made art, art...ironic) to be creative. And I was uninterested in the kind of art I thought I’d “have” make to be considered creative.⠀
I’ve always had messy printing and writing. I still can’t cut anything straight..it always comes out crooked. I’m not great at drawing. I only took art class in grade 9 and I actually found it terribly boring (no offence to my art teacher). And I definitely don’t have an art degree.⠀
Those among many other reasons are why I didn’t see myself as someone who’s creative/has the potential to be creative.⠀
I didn’t see my constant need to ask questions and wonder as a glimmer of creativity within me. I didn’t see my resourcefulness while making activities during my time as a day camp leader as a sign that I was creative. Same goes for daydreaming, brainstorming, problem solving and my aversion to being told to follow “best practices”.⠀
So yeah, if you’ve never felt like you quite fit into those “definitions” either, I get you.